http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15 feeling lost Wed, 14 Feb 2007 05:21:17 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en i feel like a broken record. i don’t know what else to type. there is only one thing in my heart, and that’s emptiness. i love you so much and i think about you every second of every day. i feel like i can’t go on so much of the time. ... http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=579 i miss you so much. i just don’t understand how the world keeps moving. i can’t do it without you.. and i hate them for being able to. http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=578 Missing you. Thinking about you. Hating being here without you. Feeling Empty. Hating everything. The feelings never stop. It never stops hurting. I never stop aching for you. Not even for one second. This time of year makes me sick. Lately, everything makes me sick. If I wasn’t so busy trying ... http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=577 to: MeghieBear824@hotmail.com re: so, you want to be me? Dear Psycho, The sad truth is.. I wish you were. I wish you had to wake up every morning with the feeling of emptiness that i do. I wish that you had trouble holding your surviving child because he looks so much like the one that passed. ... http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=576 who would do this? who would PRETEND that this happened to THEIR BABY? I wish she was me. I wish she had to live this nightmare. http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=575 i miss you more and more every single second. you chaged all of us, baby. you also took most of me with you. you’re never going to be without mommy. i love you so much. http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=574 This morning I had to go into the nursery to get some onesies for your baby brother, so I put him in your crib for the very first time while i was picking out clothes. We never really go in there because it makes me so desperately sad. He immediately started ... http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=573 i love you so much. http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=572 Your baby brother was born last week. i have been trying to find words to write here ever since then… but they just won’t come out. he is beautiful. sometimes when i look at him i see you there… and it is hard. it’s not fair. any of it. i really want ... http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=571 i just went out of the house for a little while to try to find a desk for our bedroom. a little girl (almost 2, i would guess) was wondering around crying. she came up behind me calling “mama”. It took every ounce of strength i had not to fall apart ... http://www.girl138.com/v-web/wp15/?p=570